There is a building in Lalitpur. If you find yourself on the ground towards the south of the building you’ll, of course, see it’s south elevation. On the south elevation, if you ignore the ten small circular holes on the far right and the far left – you’re left, with sixty big windows. Each window, the border of which is painted white, has three major panels, each panel has its own smaller upper panel that is fixed . The bigger central panel is fixed too, the two panels on either side swing outside. The building is a huge five storey structure; nothing remarkable about it really. At 7:00 PM one man makes his way up the stairs from the right side of the building. He walks up to the top floor. He starts from the top right room. In every room, he first pulls in the window panes and latches them, he then walks back to the door and switches the lights off before he locks the door from outside and moves on to the next one. When in the next room, he repeats this act. After he is done with the top floor, he walks down the stairs and goes through each of the rooms in the lower floor, then moves on to the next floor. Eventually, he reaches the very last room. All the lights in this building have been switched off one by one, in the end only one window glows. But, before he checks the windows and switches off the light of this last room, he rests. He leans on the window and smokes a cigarette. After he finishes his cigarette, he dumps the butt in the bin and dutifully latches the windows, switches the lights off and locks the door from the outside. I did not check the time, so I can’t say with certainty, but it mustn’t have taken him more than sixty years to get to the bottom left room from the top right room.
त्यति गाह्रो छैन बुझ्न,
कल्पना नै गरे नि हुन्छ
तलाउको पानिमा ढुङ्गा फ्याके जस्तै हो,
तिम्रो कमलो छातीमा राज्यको तातो कोसेली,
तिम्रो १९ बर्षीय सन्तानको गिदी
एक कचौरा मासु पोखिएको जस्तै
अनि त्यो गिदी पनि ,
राज्यको बुटहरुले कुल्चिएको !
कल्पना नै गरे नि हुन्छ
त्यति गाह्रो छैन बुझ्न,
तिमीले त्यो गिदी सडकबाट सोहोर्नु परेको भए –
सायद कम्प्युटरमा बसेर
“लौ! लौ लौ !
आहा, सर हानेछ !” भन्दैन थियौ होला,
कल्पना नै गरे नि हुन्छ,
तिम्री श्रीमतीले पकाएको खाना खान
बुलुकी घर उज्यालो पार्न आएन भने,
अनि उसको चिताको रापले मुटु सधैँ चिसो हुने भएको भए
तिमी तिम्रो मेचमा बसेर – कम्प्युटरको स्क्रिनमा गोली पड्किएको
रमाएर हेर्दैन थियौ होला,
आवाज थपडीको र चड्कनको एउटै हुन्छ
फरक छुट्याउन त्यति गाह्रो छैन,
कल्पना नै गरे नि हुन्छ !
The city I live in rains on and pours, through my walls, windows and doors. But sometimes, I find myself in silence that stretches on like a rubber band; I think of sounds.
I remember the times when my ears were overflown, by the cries this city makes, the dangling dishes from the neighbor’s kitchen, the random Street seller dragging his two-wheeled spoke held bicycle shop, selling random shit, everything sells on the streets from carpets to cauliflowers.
Sitting on my two color helical bamboo tool, that I bought from a similar bicycle shop, I try to listen to the cauliflower and the carpet talk to each other, I wish I could comprehend their language. What would the cauliflower say? What would the cauliflower have to share about its life to a carpet, what would the carpet understand? What about the cauliflower’s unruly hands that spreads out like disease would the carpet relate to? Wouldn’t the carpet only nod back – just to be nice.
And what would the carpet have to say to a cauliflower. What about its endless two-dimensional spread would the cauliflower relate to? Would the Cauliflower be awed by the stories of the sheep’s that were trimmed for the carpet to be born. Would the cauliflower be curious about the tale- What would he ask back , Did the sheep like their new hairstyle? What happened to the them? Where do they live? How many carpets have they given birth to?
What would the cauliflower understand? Wouldn’t cauliflower only nod back, just to be nice. The city I live in rains on and pours, through my walls, windows and doors, but sometimes, when I find myself in silence that stretches on like a rubber band, I think of sounds.
My ears are overflown. The metal gates of neighborhood, they open and close as if they were eyes, the creaks that usually follow opening and closing of doors are replaced by dog barks that follow in religious conformity. These metal flaps are not just eye lids ,but also holes, like worm holes suspended in space with giggly edges, they lead both inside and outside, it really only depends on which side you want to call inside.
When I find myself in silence that stretches on like a rubber band, I can hear my heart beat. It beats like metal gates like eyes, it imitates the street seller’s timed calls,
it beats like the clanks in an old gas igniter in the neighbor’s kitchen, tikk ! tikk ! tikk ! Desperately trying to put something on fire with a little spark. My heart beats like the way a spoon falls on marble floor, and sometimes my heart sounds like carpet is telling stories to a cauliflower.
A daughter picks a puppy from the street,
brings it home.
the younger brother jumps with joy,
the mother walk out to the porch.
It’s a Bitch
So what ?
It will bleed.
No it won’t.
Alright, it will.
So what ?
It isn’t a proper dog.
We will need chains the mother says.
And a kennel,
Especially during her days.
Father comes home,
“It’s a bitch” he says.
They chain the bitch.
The bitch is gone,
The daughter cries.
Her brother cries.
The house is quiet
The children are sad.
The mother is sad
because her children are sad.
The father goes to sleep.
Father picks a puppy from the store,
Brings it home.
The younger brother jumps with joy,
The mother walk out to the porch.
It’s not a bitch.
कैसे हुए हम ऐसे, खाग के दीवाने ।
रोशनको करे अन्धेरा, ऐसे राग के दीवाने ।
तक्लीफ-ए-मोहबत तो होती है
पर हम तो उसी फिराकके दीवाने ।
दूर तलक दिलमें किसिके शोले जगाए,
हम उस चिरागले दीवाने ।
सर्दीयोकि मौशममें जमाहुवा है एक झील
हम ऐसे एक बागके दीवाने ।
और जल्ता हुवा जीगर बर्फ बन्जाये
पलभरमें हम ऐसी कोहि आगके दीवाने ।
काम छोड कर भवरा, आजाद उड्ने लगे
हम ऐसे कोही परागके दीवाने ।
इन्शानी कर्दे कोइ फकीरको,भी
हम वैसे कोहि दागके दीवाने ।
I hate existing in dreadful lazy days
I discover sanity on crazy days
Today if you test and fail me in my path
I’ll insist on clarity, on hazy days
When I see ashtrays some bottles and glasses
I can tell this is one of my daisy days
On sober nights I feel like a renegade
These nights lead me to one of my Jay-Z days
I wonder at nine, where do I go from here
Life just feels like a long string of maze-y days
Heavy weight bags that I unpacked yesterday
Today I Fail to achieve any cozy days
Your words your hands and your smile, they lie to me
A dry cheek of pretend; no true rosy days
My pen and paper they kneel and pray today
Eklavya, this ain’t one of your easy days.
…And what except the dark clouds, and the thunder bolts
does the mountain get back from the sea
but that does not stop the mountain
the mountain keeps melting itself
releases rivers bound for the sea.